It turns out that the church I’m courting does have a matins service during the week…so, there’s that. I’ve been looking for a way to do a kind of location scout and maybe this is the way to do it. I’m told that there are not many seats in the typical orthodox sanctuary…most people stand during the service. This thought lends me some angst. I wish I could just be invisible until I understand how I fit in the scheme of things, where I’m meant to stand, where I’m meant to be. I just want to be able to prepare a little, to know what lies ahead before I build it up too much in my head. Am I building this up too much in my head? Yes, ok, I know I am. This is why I am writing it down, friends. It helps to shunt the distraction and the despair out my head and into some great river that can carry it away from me.